On 7th March 2022, I have tested positive covid. Got to taste the covid, my nose really hurt. I thought it's due to I inhale too much cigarette smoke. After work, I decided to perform another test, because my runny nose and sore throat doesn't feel right. Tadaaa! it's 2 lines.
Started quarantine on 8th March 2022 until 13th March if the symptom is gone. I pray so. I don't think I can survive too long in a house. I start to overthink. I started to compare myself with other people. I start to belittle myself for still being single at the age of 30.
At one time I am okay, another time, I just lost it. I am so good at looking down at myself.
I hope Allah will forgive me. I know, I have every person who loves me and do not care if I am single or not good. They just love me for who I am. I know that too well. This is the bad side of me staying alone.
May Allah guide me and make me a good servant. I want to visit His house. I want to enter Jannah. The highest Jannah. If maybe I'm not married in this world, I pray that Allah will give me the best husband in Jannah. I pray that, Allah will provide Hani with the best person that is love by Allah.
I love her too much and I pray that she gets the best in everything.
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